A thousand... debts... things... feelings... a thousand whatever...

It's been told that for as much as you feel someone to be like family to you, where there's no blood involved, there's always trouble at the end, specially if there's money in the middle...

Too much I know of this subject. Due to very negative experiences that I rather not recall at this moment, I've learnt that the best recipe to keep friendship intact with those important to you, is to leave money out of the way and in each one's pocket.

Now that I'm in charge of a budget and of paying salaries and stuff, it is really hard to deal with this matter.

I've really had to stay clear and serious about this, but have been lucky to find real true friends in my workplace. People who share the same interests and values, who are always there helping and spending time with you, just being happy and staying real to you... but most importantly, true to themselves...

I don't think there's something I hate more than this money problems...

Filthy fucking necessary money!

Why do you have to finance most of good things in life?!

I don't believe in God, but if there is one, he knows how much I need money right now...

How I'd like to clean up my debts and help everyone around me to clear theirs as well...

How I long to have a peaceful life in a comfy home, newly built next to my beloved Magellan Strait here in PUQ...

How many dreams I would fulfill with a handful of money, accompanied by those who I love the most, the love of my life, my mom, my dad, my best friends (stupid assholes both of you, dickheads! xD), and my doggies, of course... even them would accomplish the dream of having a house of their own ^_^

We would all travel and visit friends in other continents, we would all enjoy a holiday or two like in the old days, roasting lamb on a spare on the country side of the city, spending endless hours contemplating that fire and telling stories about my grandparents... They always made us laugh...

God damn! How I wish to leave this heartbreaking, soul reaping worrying behind me....

I'm sick of being worried all the time, thinking on what the hell is gonna happen tomorrow, how the fuck I'm gonna pay for gas, or next months salaries, and hoping that please pretty pleeease the bank won't take the money out of my account to prepay one of all the loans I have, cause shit, that's a bitch when it happens...

Oh God I swear I would pray to you every day thankfully if you make me win the lottery right now...

On the other hand, I apologize for discharging all of my self pitying-anger emotions here with you, but sometimes I really miss having a Diary for my own, and although this blog isn't much of a popular fashion blog as I would wish, it helps me to write down all annoying things bothering me in life.

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To Change the subject, I would like to tell you about my "Couchsurfing" experiences as a host here in Punta Arenas.

I became an active member this past June, and only have hosted 2 couples and a girl from Chicago, but tonight I'm receiving Fung Tsang from Hong Kong, who might be a very interesting visitor to hang out with.

I would have loved to say yes to all couch requests, but due to my mom's visit in September, and the constant negativity on my fiance's behalf, I've only been allowed to host two more people this year. Which obviously sucks for me, because I love being around foreign people and listen to their travel stories, countries and hometowns, and just to make that bond to stay in touch, so maybe one day I could visit them.

I'm excited to travel again, and having tourists around just makes it all easier.
Our first couple was lovely! Charoula and Huseyin are newly weds from Germany, from Greek and Turkish descendants. They became close to us and felt like we've been friends for long. I actually missed them when they left, and I'm dreaming of going to Stuttgart and visit them. They proposed to come with us to Greece and Turkey if we ever decide to make the trip to Europe, so that's a plan we need to talk about soon!
Then I hosted, only for a night, Angela and Victor both from Calabria, Santander in Spain. So fun and friendly! I would've liked to know them a bit more, but our schedules weren't all compatible unfortunately.
And last, but not the least, came Molly from Chicago USA. She was actually living in Santiago Chile for past 2 years, she told me that she was only suppose to stay for 1 year, but fell in love with a chilean boy, and decided to stay for him. Now she's going back for the holidays, and her boyfriend is visiting her in February. So we had a lot in common, since Jorge and I went through a long distance relationship and made it work, I was able to give her some advice and just share our story with her to make her see that it is possible to maintain love overseas. I hope it works well for them...

After those couchsurfers, I had to host my best friend in life and his new girlfriend from Sao Paulo. She was very nice and I trust her to take care of one of my men whom I love so much since we were teenagers. They left to Sao Paulo, both of them... They'll come back to Chile and Patagonia on March 2015, and then go to New Zeland for long... I don't know how much time...

This makes ache... The uncertainty of not knowing if I'm gonna see him again soon, and to think that my other best friend might also move to another city, or country... It also makes me ache...

I can deal with change, but this... this would be too much!

I really wish the best for both of them, but... I know I have Jorge, but...

They'd leave here at the end of the world... alone...

We're definitely growing up dudes...

Who would have thought that, not only we'd stayed friends thorough all these years, but that our lives would change so much...

Me engaged, owner of our family business and working with my Dad, Camilo such a pro with a bright future wherever he wishes to go, and Beto... He's been the most rewarding surprise of all! From being an outcast, outlaw, rebel and irresponsible son of a bitch who spent time in rehab at eighteen, to be an experienced and passionate tour guide, now travelling the world and dreaming to accomplish more...

Life really is a surprise, and I can't wait to let time surprise me some more!

To both Beto & Camilo... I love you guys, forever in my soul I'll think of you and wish you the best on whatever journey you decide to begin...